1/28/2024
Dad, I just found this and I know nobody will ever read it but me. But this is as close as I can get to talking to you. Can you believe it, I'm 64. I can't believe it most of the time, but my body has no problem reminding me lol. In my mind I'm still in my early 20's. Isn't it crazy how the mind works. I just wish my body followed suit. I have a lot of the same issues you had. The arthritis especially. I finally understand so many things that I never did before. I know I'll see you when I get to heaven. Sometimes I wish it was today. But God has me here for a reason. I trust that. Just like you did. I know you've watched over me and I know you've been very disappointed me for a lot of my life. I know in heaven there are no bad emotions. Everything is forgiven. But I feel so much guilt because I didn't get to see you or even talk to you. One of my biggest regrets. I know I can never make it right or forgive myself the way I know you have. I wish I could talk to you one more time. But I'll have to wait for that. God knows my heart and so do you. Please help me to forgive myself, the way that you have. I'll be back again. I love you always.
